the battle within.

words are not coming. i want to describe a struggle that i deal with often. the feeling that i am not doing, as a Christian, what i could be doing. i question -- my life is so comfortable, how can it be? but if greg doesn't feel called to be living somewhere else/doing something else, why do these thoughts continue? is my mission field right in front of my eyes, and i am blinded to where i have been called? have You brought the mission field You have for me right to me?

Lord, You have already won every battle - please help me see that You have me here and nowhere else --this is where i am supposed to be and this is what i am supposed to be doing. please keep my heart right here, but always in touch with the needs of others. until You decide, or not, it is time to move this family to something new. in the meantime, i will keep my heart with You.